| [ takin' a break ] |
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woOt... yes, it's true... i'm take a break from l_j for a while... i made a new blogger last night and it's all pretty. ^_^ so if you wanna know what's up, go there and read... laters kids! xo; karina*
http://littopnaicutie.blogspot.com
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[20 Jun 2002|12:49pm] |
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i think i had an entry named that eariler... ohwellz...
so wat is kar doin? nothing as always ;P ehh i am doing my laundry, but still... in the intervals in between... i got nothin'.
dustin's off somewhere for his sister's graduation... CONGRATS, LA!! :) ... my turn is next year... eep! then it's off to the philippines for the WHOLE summer. ::skirred of leaving dustin::
i wanna make my l_j pretty, but i haven't a clue how. i'm sooo tempted to join xanga coz you can make it prettier, but i'm not. maybe i can make a site and have l_j embedded into it? that is possible, right? well... we'll see depending on how bored i get today xP
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[20 Jun 2002|12:36am] |
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You have a few close friends that you are comfortable with, but can get along with anyone. You have an exceptional sweet tooth for candy with a personality to match. If you can't
brighten up someone's day, no one can!
What San-X Character Are You?
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| [ ugghhh agita. ] |
[19 Jun 2002|11:55pm] |
can someone please please help me out with customizing mi l_j?? i've been trying to work at it for the looooooooongest time... buh ugh... i just can't do it!! i must've read that developer section thing like 5 million times... ugh... SOMEONE HELP PLEASE!!!!
keke... i sound so desperate xP
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[17 Jun 2002|09:50pm] |
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>>What's your name? maria karina mercado banzon tabeta
>>Nicknames? kar, litto fuse, ainjel guh, mama, babes, kaz, k, baby, pnai cutie, boOtyful
>>Age? seventeen
>>Sex? dickless <-- pwahahahaha so clever jaz
>>Birthday? O3.27
>>Your sign? aries
>>Where do you live? en jae in da [nine`seven`three] - hiawatha woOt!
>>Do you have a boy/girlfriend? yesssss
>>If so what's her/ his name? dustin
>>Have you ever been in love? yes, i am right now
>>Who are/ were your crushes? eh?
>>Do you have any piercings? yessum
>>If so what do you have/want pierced? juz mai ears
>>Do you have a tattoo or want one? i kinda do... i guess?
>>If so what kind and where? iunno... maybe a small wun... on mai lower back
>>Where do you shop the most? forever 21 and delia*s
>>What color is your hair? brown with blonde highlights
>>What colors are you eyes? brown/fake gray
>>How tall are you? 5'1 i think... papi sez i grew
>>Do you drink? kekekeke hihi jose ::coughcuervocough::
>>Who are your friends? mai papi<33 mai girls frum kCS, jeffy and cannie, en mai 4AC guyz
>>Who are your best friends online? da same ppolz i juss listed en mai fAB f0UR
>>Do you like Bath & Body Works? i used to... i hab two body sprays... buh imma use it wen i run outta mai BCBG
>>What kind of shampoo and condition do you use? pantene... i hab da wun fer coloured hair
>>Is your hair short or long? short!! da lady cut it waay too short :\
>>Do you like to shop? fock yah
>>What sports do you play? field hockey and varsity sex... one on one with dustin ;P
>>What place do you go for fun? the bedroom ::winkwink:: ... nah, i lubbs mai computer <33
>>What do you do for fun? watever pops into mai head
>>How many TV's do you have in your house? 8... yah wid about 9 ppolz livin in ur house yah u want ur own tv
>>What are your favoirte foods? mcdonald's fries
>>Do you like anyone famous?? hayden? naaahhh i got mai own jedi wid a REAL lightsaber ;P
>>Who are the most attractice people you know? everyone is pretty in their own pretty way
>>Do you consider yourself attractive? i guess?
>>Do you wish to be like your parents? no, buh dustin sez im gettin der
>>What are you listening to right now? "you were there" - southern sons
>>How many hours per day do you spend talking on the phone? an hour or two i guess
>>Have you ever kissed someone of the opposite? yess
>>What kind of clothes do you sleep in, if any? sweats and a white t-shirt
>>What's your favoirte drink? DR PEPPER... shit is da ishie keke
>> What things do you say a lot? eh? and huh? and wat?
>>Who is the coolest person in the world? not me... coz i'm da HOTTEST ::sizzlesizze::
>>Do you think you're weird or funny? both... im so weird im funny
>>Do you prefer thong or bikini? thong woOt. yah u know u wanna see.. pssshhh sowwie aint gonna happen! ceptyoupapi
>>Who are the last person you called? i called mai sister dis morning to get meeh en dus from school
>>Where do you want to get married? in a church somwhere
>>Who is the hottest girl/guy in your school? ME ::sizzlesizzle:: lol... dustin ub course
>>What are your favoirte girl names? kristiannah
>>What are you favorite guy names? leroy
>>What's your worst memory in the past 5 years? may 26-june 15
>>What's your favoirte childhood memory? chillen wid jaz en andrew... pissin off andrew and me and jaz pissin off jamie lol
>>What's your favoirte fast food restaurant? mc donald's en wendy's
>>Who do you really hate? uhhh people...
>>Do you have any brothers or sisters? yeah wun sis
>>If so, names? camela
>>Do you have a pool? nope, buh i hab dev fer dat
>>Do you have a spa? nope
>>Are you stupid? huh?
>>What are you addicted to? mai computer... yah i'm not afraid to admit it xP aaannddd... dustin
>>Do you like jewelry? yeah, buh not alot of it
>>Who do you wish you were? myself
>>Who has it easier, boys or girls? it is the same... chicks get their periods and guys get pre ejaculations... it's all good.
>>Would you rather be short or tall? bein short has benefits ::winkwink::
>>Do you like playing pranks on people? only on mai friends coz i know they can take it
>>What's your favorite subject in school? english... lmao feula and her "sex poetry"
>>What time is it? 10:21
>>What college do you want to go to? i narrowed it down to: Monclair State, Drew, William Paterson, and Farleigh Dickinson
>>What schoool do you go to now? Parsippany High... REDSKINS FOR LIFE
>>What's your favorite radio station? i don't listen that much... buh wen i do.. its usually power 105
>>Your favoirte TV station? MTV and Starz
>>Do you shave? down there? maybe...
>>How often do you shower? cada noche
>>Do you get along w/ your parents? occassionally
>>What room do you spend the most time in? my room... I LOVE SLEEPING SO GET YOUR MIND OUT OF THE GUTTER
>>How many rooms do you have in your house?? iunno never counted
>>What do you want to be when you get out of school? freelance website designer or english teacher
>>Do you curse a lot? fock yah biatch watchu want mofo'!?
>>Are you ticklish? yeah... so yah i'll clock you if you tickle meeh
>>What are you wearing right now? why you wanna know? so you can take it off me?
>>Do you go to chruch? i habn't been to church since april :x
>>Do you belive in GOD? yes, i do.
>>Do you belive in love at first sight? no, coz i had to look twice lol
>>What color toothbrush do you use? a clearish purple tinted oral b keke
>>How many times a day do you brush? twice
>>Who is your fav. cartoon character? mashimaro and hewwo kitty
>>Do you have a job? nope.. i did buh i hate cleaning up after stuck-up ppolz
>>What's your fav. fruit? mangoes and peaches
>>Your fav. veggies? broccoli wid cheez kekeke
>>Your fav. candy? rasinettes
>>What was the best day of your life so far? june 27 2001
>>What are you going to do today? sleep coz das all i can do after dis lol
>>When do you suck up to your parent? wen i wanna go somewhere
>>Who is the sweetest girl? mai girls are sweet na sweet
>>Who is the sweetest guy? dustin!
>>How many rings or necklaces do you own? alot buh mai mom keeps dem
>>Do you wear a watch? nope... never.
>>Did/Do you have braces? nope... i hab crooked teeth!! woOt!!!
>>Are you tired? sorta?
>>What are you thinking right now? wat shood i wear... and i miss mai papi
>>Are you having fun? wherrd
>>What time is it? 10:38
>>Who makes you laugh? everyone does... it's not that hard yanno...
>>Who's your fav. teacher? FEULA... ohh man, who else would combine health class with english?
>>What is your favoirte dream? me and dustin at a hojo. that's all i'm gonna say
>>What was your worst dream?? i was walking and i see dustin making out with some chick.. anden outta nowhere he hits me in da face, laughs and goes back kissin da oder chick
>>Are you tired of filling this out yet? im smart im werkin backwards
>>Who of your fav. friends do you think will get bored of this? iunno...
>>Who's your best friend? it's a four-way tie: dustin, can, sheng, and cat
>>What's your worst memory as a little kid? uhhh wen i called mai uncle "mommy" in the supermarket and he was der with mai other uncle so ppolz thought dey wer a gay couple
>>Boredyet? extremely
>>Do you like anyone now? dustin man... ggggg
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i will NOT get sucked into xanga!!!
even if it's the "azn" thing to do ;P
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dayum, alot has happened...
me and dustin got back together yesterday. ::smiles like a goofball:: it was nuts... just when i was about to take his advice and move on, he tells me how he truly felt. i was in shock for a while... i really didn't know what to say. we were online, mind you, so he asked if he could call me up. i said "sure" and a minute later the phone rings. he says to me, "i've been thinking about this for such a long time... will you take me back?"
of course i said yes
it's insane how it took 2 car accidents, 2 girls, and 20 excruciating days to make us realize how much we truly and honestly mean to one another.
i'm so thankful for getting my life back...
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[14 Jun 2002|11:22pm] |
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"each day i wake up wit a smile...knowin ill see u...knowin ill talk to u..and each day ends with a tear...knowin that we're not the same as before.."
~dustin
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[02 Jun 2002|10:43pm] |
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i just found some on a page... just thought i'd like to share.
I'll never be sorry for loving him, just sorry it ended so quickly.
What do I do? I mean, I'm sitting here, and everything's hitting me all at once. The tears fall slowly down my cheek, and my whimpers can barely be heard. I'm pushing you away, and I know it's what I need, but the pain you must be feeling is hurting me far more than words could even describe.
Even though I can say it's his loss, deep down inside I know it'll be mine too.
It's time to let you go it's time to say good-bye. No more excuses, no more tears to cry. There have been so many changes; I've been so confused. All along you were the one, all the time I never knew. I want you to be happy, you're my best friend. But it's so hard to let you go now, with all that could have been.
*We attach ourselves so strongly to people that when they're gone, a part of us is gone too.*
*You hug him good-bye like it's nothing...while all you want to do is hold on
forever...but you let go, smile and walk away...then cry all the way home because you know it will never be the same...because try as you might you can't make someone love you, sometimes you have to let them be free...and letting go, that is when love hurts the most of all*
"Good-byes will always hurt, pictures will never replace being there, thanx is a feeble word...words can never replace feelings and heroes often go unsung...people seldom say I love you and then it's either too late or the moment goes, so when I tell you I love you it doesn't mean I know you'll never go, only that I wish you didn't have to."
Forget the times he walked by, forget the times he made you cry, forget the times he spoke your name, remember now he's not the same, forget the times he held your hand, forget the sweet things if you can, forget the times and don't pretend, remember now he's just your friend
"Promise me...that's all I want. Just a promise that you will never forget me. Tell me I changed you somehow. Let me know that I had an impact on your life. Promise me that you will always remember me. Losing you was hard enough, but I don't want to go on knowing I meant absolutely nothing to you. "
"I will wait for you. I don't care when you are coming back or if you ever plan to see me again because fate will bring you back to me and I will wait an eternity if that's how long it will take"
Nothing last forever no matter how bad you want it to. I know, I wanted him pretty bad. But maybe it is for the best. I am letting him go silently though. I can't tell him in fear that I will make a fool of myself by begging him to stay. Suck back my tears and walk away. I can't worry about my heart breaking. Someday I'll find someone...someday. I wish the tears would stop.
*The worst way to miss someone is to have them standing right next to you and know you can't have them. *
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[02 Jun 2002|01:42pm] |
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la dee da... hehe my dad is watching Shanghai Noon.
right now i'm doing nothing... typical, eh? i'm supposed to be redoing the wording on my computer graphics project, but i'm juss too damn lazy. i was about to call dustin today when i woke up, but i forgot he had church. whoops. hehe ehh, i guess i'll talk to him whenever he gets back. [ skooks i have How High till tomorrow! ]
i should redo my nails. this pink colour is scary. i need some red on them. *nods* skooks thought they were cute, buh they look kinda weird...? hehe iunno.
i'm happy... and the world should be too xP
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[01 Jun 2002|11:28pm] |
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my day changed for the better. crazy.
dustin came over at like 3 or 4 unexpectedly. i was in my parent's room watching Shrek, and i heard the doorbell ring. i went to get it... and there he was standing on my steps, leaning against the rail. i let him in, and we chilled on the couch, watching tv. we talked, too. everything's okay and i hope it'll continue to be okay... i can't completely loose him. we've been through so much together and grown so close that it's extremely hard to separate... then again, we're bffl with boOty ::giggles:: right skooks? xP
but no matter what, he'll always be my baby :*)
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hehe i went out tonight without dustin. (whoaaa) hehe anyways, so we were planning to go to the student vs. faculty basketball game, but it was $5 so we all said screw it and went to the mall. cat got her window stuck, so her and can went to go for help and i volunteered to go inside with jeff and "window shop".
so we go into all these stores and he's showing me the shoes he wants and the G cap he likes. then, we go into Epic and he's pickin out these clothes to try on. haha, he even showed me this baby phat tank top that he said was nice lookin. i had to admit, it was really cute. it was a tan asymmetrical top, with this one strap that was braided and the other side had nothing and on the side in gold it had the baby phat symbol. hehe, i was gonna buy it buh it cost too much. :\
me and dustin wonderful. can you beleive it? hehe iun wanna jinx myself, but i juss had to say it ^_^
oh, and i'd like to send a special shout out to my dikeadellic hoes cathy and candace... you're bootyful girls!! hehehee
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[28 May 2002|09:52pm] |
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i always seem to be writing in l_j when something bad happens to me, heh, go figure. so what's troubling me today? me and dustin broke up officially on the 26th, one day shy of our 11 month anniversary and a month and a day shy of our 1 year anniversary. damn, if we ever get back together... if we'd have to start ALL over again. ugh.
today i had a fairly good day up to a certain point. i missed the morning half of school because i had a doctor's appointment. then i went to school and i only had 4 classes to go to. woOt. i had therapy but that only lasted for an hour, so i got home and ordered pizza. dustin even came by and said hello very quickly. i hadn't expected to see him at all this afternoon. lovely, huh? i also finished downloading my Star Wars: Episode II Attack of the Clones off Kazaa and was planning to watch it after i had finished my math homework.
where's the bad thing?
dustin's mother hates me. he was on the phone with me, and she picked up asking if she could borrow it. she then goes downstairs, asks him who he's talking to. he says my name. she tells him not to talk to me anymore. why? just because i broke up with him and made him cry. OMG give me a break! i wasn't the one that treated him badly. i never once lied to him. it's so rude because i would wake up early and so would my sister, just to take him to school so his parents didn't have to and so he wouldnt have to go through the hassle of finding a ride. did we ever complain once? did my sister ever complain when she would fall asleep waiting for him in front of his house? did i complain about waking up early and rushing ever morning? nope. not once have we opened our mouths. the other day she gave me a dirty look when i was over. she looked at me from head to toe with this expression on her face and said to him, "what are you doing? take her home already." God, well sorry i'm not good enough for your son. is it really my fault that he cried? nope. if he hadnt treated me badly maybe i wouldnt have broken up with him. maybe we would still be together... but i bet you anything there would always be something wrong with me so she can use that as an excuse for her son not to see me anymore. I swear, my family has NEVER openly expressed distate for Dustin. even during the beginning of our relationship when they found out about us. i wasn't allowed to date, but did they insult Dustin? nope. i'm sorry to say but that woman is just plain rude. it pisses me off to think that i tried to be nice to her and even gave her a gift.
God, she's just plain rude.
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my parents are leaving tonight, and since my MRI got canceled, she asked if i wanted to come along...
hrmmm... go to toronto? stay in nj?
suggestions? i only have till like 11. i might just stay though... i have to study for the SATs and i have loads and loads of laundry to do... damn laundry.
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happy 18th to my buddy jeffy. he's legal now... watch out!! hehe, we took him to hoOters and he took pictures with the hoOter girls.
i joined a bunch of hayden and star wars communities today... boredom overcomes me again, but i only posted in one... ohwellz?
mom and dad are leavin fer toronto tomorrow night! sleepover for karina and dustin... ;)
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okay, so i'm in school and i really don't want to be here. we're talking like friends... holding hands... i even kissed him before i went to this class... but i can tell that it's not the same. i don't like this feeling i'm having and it hurts alot...
i don't wanna be just his friend... i wanna be something more</i>.
i thought i was... and then he started lying to me and ditching me and he didn't even want to listen to my problems... it was all about him all the time...
i guess this is just for the best, but i'm unhappy. :(
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i told you yesterday that would be my only good day...
me and dustin broke up...
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i'm juss gonna write in here really fast... tomorrow is physical therapy... ick. buh today my day went so well:
1. i got an extension on my research paper and my 1 page essay on Joy Luck Club
2. me and dustin got to hang out today after school ;)
3. my clothes came in from Alloy... yay!!
4. my parents are going to toronto ALL weekend (partaay!!)
5. i worked on my personal webbie AFTER i got ALL my homework done!! yayyy!!! check it out.
6. i'm listening to serial joe! yayyy some more!
i'm so shocked. i bet this is the only good-luck day i'm gonna have all week!
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